Friday, October 06, 2006
today will be the LAST paper! the day i've been waiting for. finally! good!
last day is on the 16. soon the day will surely come. I dont know whether you guys will be happy or sad? i reaally somehow feel that we are really damn different from before! Maybe due to some unhappy incidents that has happened, therefore many things are different now. i guess its not too good to gossip behind people's back, and just yesterday i saw one, but im not gonna say. im gonna just let the damn matter rest.
Actually, i guess its always because of ME therefore things are now happening. i feel im always the one giving problems and not the one solving it. many many things changed. i guess until now we dont even have a proper clique outing? its always not the 7 of us. it always either 5 or 6 of us. and yet when someone's angry, everybody becomes damn quiet. many things are happening, and yet i think it'll be only good if i dont let a single soul knw about it. probably i guess im just putting a strong front infront of you all? if i tell out, many more things will start to pile up just like as high as the Bukit Timah Hill. you see, get what i mean? i just dont want that to happen and cause all of you to be so sad. actually, i may not know you guys that well. you all have your own secret space. you guys are just letting your friend that you trust most know about ur problems, we dont even dare share it to the rest. i guess we are really seriously just drifting apart? and maybe after our secondary life, we will be separated? i dont think that will be a good ending. maybe it isn't ending, its just starting over? i dont know. now as i type, many more things are just poping up. i dont know. thats how i feel. dont you think so?
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10/06/2006 11:10:00 AM.